So I have a habit of blogging well for a while, then disappearing all together.
I’ll let you in on a secret.
It’s not just the blogging. I’ve spent most of my life working in big bursts of creative fire where all sorts of things get done in all sorts of areas and for a while I am super woman.
Or perhaps, I’m Icarus…
For inevitably after one of these big fiery episodes, I find I’ve once again sailed too close to the sun and my wings of wax melt and I plummet, spending weeks or more feeling wrung out, tired and sick. Then I get my energy back and I’m so sick of being unproductive that I start in again with a new burst.
Only to do it all over again.
But it’s too hard to deal with the tired phase, so I must do something different.
If there’s one thing that the publishing process for Flight of Blue has taught me, however, it’s that I have to break down deadlines into doable steps and then treat each step as though it is its own very important deadline. Otherwise I end up with insurmountable obstacles.
And doing all this with my amazing 13-month old means that I can’t sleep for 2 days to try to make up for lost sleep. So I have to find rhythm and balance, I must learn to plan and schedule and as much as part of me hates that sort of restraint, I need to learn to look at the freedom from stress that it all brings.
It will take time to change these habits.
Part of it is too, that I need to learn to say “no” more often…
But that, I believe is a post in itself 😉